Wife to one, Mama to Two, out of the fast lane and into the SLO life.
Monday, November 30, 2015
“The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - which you had thought special and particular to you. And now, here it is, set down by someone else, a person you have never met, someone even who is long dead. And it is as if a hand has come out, and taken yours” Alan Bennett - The History Boys: The Film
Young Girl Reading, or The Reader (French: La Liseuse), is an 18th-century oil painting by Jean-Honore' Fragonard
Reading women, circa 1900 ,Oil painting by Pierre Auguste Renoir
In anticipation of the unforeseen, turbulent and over whelming moments I'm expecting to feel this week and in the upcoming weeks as well, my Monday motivation expectation for myself will be just to keep hold of my footing, keeping my balance and showing and accepting (the accepting part is hard for me) support. I suspect this week will feel a lot like walking along the back of a rhinoceros. I will remind myself I am a huge fan of the Rino.
"Live life like your time is limited. Make the best of the good and bad with no intention of anything else happening after death, make sure your life was lived up to your highest expectations because wether there's a heaven and hell or nothing at all, its nice to know you did your very best with the life you where given."-APK
AddictiveLifestyle was this hypothetical concept created by Andrew Kunz; a company he obsessed over and dreamed of. Andrew was the kind of guy that would get so damn passionate over things you would have to calm his roll. He never limited the possibilities and believed in living life to the fullest. He inspired so many people in his life that was ended too soon. Andrew suffered a Traumatic Brain Injury(TBI) on February 23, 2014 as the result of a car accident. This tragedy landed him in the hospital, and despite the constant efforts of some of the best doctors, extensive rehabilitation, and love, he passed away on December 6, 2014 at 19 years old. In an effort to create his dream of AddictiveLifestyle Clothing Co., sister, Juliana Kunz, and best friend, Shelby Allen, have given it life. We are a small company trying to honor a son, a brother, a best friend, and an incredible person by making his dream a reality. His meaning behind AddictiveLifestyle was, "You should give whatever you love in life 110%, live a life you can't help but love, always be humble, always be on your grind, and don't stop till you achieve... Stay Gold."
Sometimes there are words that do help get us through the hard moments. These words from Ellen Bass are mine. My hope is if your reading this and struggling, they help you too, or someone you may know. I'm struggling today much more then yesterday, and I know tomorrow may be a better day. Or, maybe not, That's the unsure thing about loss, you never know what the day, or moment will bring so you take each day has they come and do your best to roll with the punches. These words soften the blows for me. May they soften your blows as well.
to love life, to love it even when you have no stomach for it and everything you've held dear crumbles like burnt paper in your hands, your throat filled with the silt of it. When grief sits with you, its tropical heat thickening the air, heavy as water more fit for gills than lungs; when grief weights you like your own flesh only more of it, an obesity of grief, you think, How can a body withstand this? Then you hold life like a face between your palms, a plain face, no charming smile, no violet eyes, and you say, yes, I will take you I will love you, again.
"You and me, we are like pea's and carrots'. It wasn't easy today Noodle, but mama did good. We all did. There were so many "should of's " but I made them into "would have's" I love you Andrew Philip Kunz with my whole being. One sweet day my Son. Until then, Don't ever wonder if the stars come out for you because they do and the birds still sing for you too. Always loved. Always near. Always with us. Always mine.